Quote of the day: Just live.

Today's quote comes from a song, You're Ex-Lover is Dead by Stars. I don't remember who told me about this song, but it is certainly worth a listen! Check them out!

I pulled out my favorite line in that song. "Live through this, and you won't look back."

How many times do you find yourself completely exposed to a situation you never thought you would ever go through? How many times do you find yourself guessing if you are going the right path out of it, or even how to start moving on? Im there. Im in that place in my life where I am constantly asking myself is this the right path? The path to healing. Or when I am finally taking each day to its fullest, I find myself going back to square one after being pulled by the bad memories that I allowed to crowd my mind, emotion, and actions.

Setting yourself goals are easy. They become our aspirations, our inspirations, and our dreams. But, making them is the hardest part, and the most eventful. Constantly jumping from rock to rock, holding your balance to not be pulled back from painful memories, doubts, and fears. Its difficult to carry such pains of the heart every day with you. Yet, not one other person can every take that from you. Sure, there are people in our lives that help ease that pain little by little, but you can control it to make it come back or not. I know, its so much easier to write about it than actually telling yourself that you will be okay, when you deep inside don't really know. You don't know where you will be this day next week or months from now. Where do you think you will be? Actually, where do you WANT to be?

Even though I speak in the perspective from a broken heart, no matter what your struggle may be, pain is pain. Hurt is hurt. Disappointment and fear overlap. So, the journey of living with these makes it harder to do things we love, things that make us who we are. But, you must move forward. Don't over analyze because then you will find yourself blaming yourself. Don't try to justify anything, take it how it is. Yes, It does not make sense. Yes, you do not deserve to go through this. No, I don't know when it will stop hurting or stop being so hard. But, I do know this. Life is worth living for. As much as it seems dark and gloomy right now, you deserve to smile, you deserve to give yourself another chance. Go for it. In the words of Robert Frost, take the road not taken. Rediscover yourself while you discover and make new memories. You deserve it. Then, before you know it, I promise, you won't look back because IT WILL NOT MATTER ANYMORE.

Quote of the Day: Just do it.

OH MY LEMONS! This has got to be one of my favorites!!!! ( WARNING: I can guarantee this won't be the first time I'll say that).

How many people do you know always seem to be doubting their capabilities/skills/talents?! I can for sure name a few. Now, would you admit that you even doubt yourself from time to time? Guilty as well.

There are so many things I want to do in this life, but never seem to push myself to go to the first step! Countless times I have written " TO DO LISTS" and taped them to my phone before I go to bed so that in the next morning it is the first thing I see. Yet, you will soon come to realize, I am not a morning person. Anything that stands in the way of me turning off the alarm on my phone ends up crumpled and thrown across the room. Anyways, I hardly ever find myself actually driving to the gym, turning on the hose to wash my truck, or to start to organize my desk. But, it feels, like that has already started to change.

Yesterday was a big day for me. I went to my first Zumba fitness class, that I have put off since I first heard about it a year ago, and I loved it! I pushed myself to keep up with the instructor even when my legs were ready to quit. After the session, I felt this feeling that I have not felt in a very long time. For the past two years, well, every since I started college, It felt like I have been carrying everyone's problems. I was doing favors, whole heartedly, but it was starting to weigh me down. For the longest time, I would feel guilty to say "no" to a favor that anyone would ask me. I didn't really expect anything in return and unfortunately, they caught onto that. GOD FORBID I'd actually say no to a request! So, for the past few years, I concentrated on to make everyone happy and the rest of my energy on school. I AM EXHAUSTED! It has been awhile since I have done something for myself that was not school related.

After my workout, I went to Target and bought two large storage boxes. Once I finally arrived home, I opened the door of my room, pushed my earphones in, pressed play, then, without hesitation, started filling up the boxes with all the trinkets, books, grade school trophies, small gifts, and a bunch of other things that I have kept along the years. I decided it was time to completely and utterly change my entire room! No more old teenage girl furniture with pink flowers painted around the corners! No more piles and piles of abandoned stuff animals, notebooks, and childhood books! Even my collection of Pirates of the Caribbean booty! ( They were put in a very special box, by the way.) I figured it was time to change the one place that I spend most of my time when I am at home. I have to be welcomed to something that is going to reflect my new and improved mentality and maturity. It is quite liberating!

I was getting restless, but I started to imagine the new colors of my walls and just less of everything that I held on to for so long. I need to free my mind and especially erase the bad times I spent crying and negative emotions created in my room. I was so proud at the moment I snapped the lids onto the plastic boxes. I can almost see the new atmosphere I was about to create FOR myself. I finally was capable of saying goodbye to the junk that only represented a fraction of what I was about, the child inside of me.

What are my plans for my new room? MANY! But most of all, I plan to buy myself an easel and finally paint, dammit!



SO, what are you going to prove to yourself today? Even if its the smallest thing, it makes the biggest difference. It is one step to another. You only have a limited time on this earth and it is your right to live it the way you only seen in your dreams. Get up and do it. Only you have the power to say "GO." Like my good friend, Estee,always says, " Ready, 1 , 2 , 3 BREAK!" Don't live your days "wishfully thinking." You will be where you are meant to be.

The rewards are endless. The best feeling you can ever imagine is closer to you than you think. Being proud of YOURSELF every time you reach a personal goal, is the the rarest feeling that no one can ever make or take from you.


Until next time,
Andreina :]

Quote of the day: Bulletproof.

This quote are lyrics from a song that I recently have attached myself to. The name of the song is called Bulletproof from the amazing artist named La Roux. My bestie, Teresa, was playing this song when she was over studying for finals. It was also a weekend when I was falling apart. I have just ended from a almost 2 year relationship. I know 2 years is not alot for many people that I know, but it was a relationship when I truly believed this BOY was the one. He played me and he played me good. He played everyone including his family and even mine. I was completely devastated, but the moment I got in my truck that night right after stepping from his house, I looked into the mirror and I knew. I knew this was going to be hard, but only as long as I let it be. I also knew, that I was beautiful and how disgusting I looked with running tears caused by a man that truly did not know me and how truly amazing I am. So, when I heard this song my attention immediately caught onto these words:

This time baby, I'll be bulletproof.

The reason why I hold onto these lyrics and the whole song itself so close is because that is exactly what I need to be. Bulletproof. Many would tell you that I am a girl that is too
nice. I never had a problem with that and I still don't. Yet, It has taken me through very tough times where I find myself with nothing after giving everything.

It has been in many accounts where I trust people too easily and find myself telling them everything about me. That was my form of finding closure with people and with myself. In my recent case, I gave my whole self to someone I thought was giving his whole self to me, atleast that is what he said when he placed the promise ring on my finger.

It is very difficult for me to write about this only because I did not think I was ready to. Yet, I surprise myself again.

My whole goal after going through this healing process, again, is to become bulletproof. No one can change me. No one can break me. You can hurt me, lie to me, and even break my heart, but no person and most of all, no man will ever come close to touching my value and self worth. I will, from now on, trust my instinct because once again they have been right the whole time. I am a woman of faith and so much to give to the world, and when the right one comes, my whole heart to give to my husband that I deserve. I deserve that happy fairy tale ending and when it comes, besides the wedding bells, will be the sounds of heart breaks from all the BOYS that let me slip through their fingers. Your loss.






Until next time,
Andreina :]

Quotes of the Day!

If you were to come in my room, you would find post it notes all over my desktop computer. All sticking around the rim of the screen scribbled with sayings, quotes, and phrases. All inspirational in their own unique way, all helped me in my darkest moments. I do not know what it is about words that can comfort you more at that moment than anything else could. Maybe it is the comfort that the person that wrote that specific quote or saying was going through the exact same thing you were! Or maybe because it is something you can repeat to yourself over and over before you sleep. That way you will start to live those inspirational words and motivate you to live life how you want it the very next day! Whatever the reason may be, words can capture us and instill something deep in our minds that encourage us to do things. So, this is why, I will do my best that every day, well, atleast every post, to put up a "quote of the day" and give you my own interpretation of it and how it affected me. Please leave comments of how it affected you! Also! Email me your own favorite quotes!
Until next Time,
Andreina :)