ehhhhhhh

Don't really feel like writing only because it feels like its the same crap over and over...
NOT saying it doesn't help to write...but how much more do I have to explain how I have been feeling.
NO, not giving up...just pausing.
Alot has happen these past two weeks...and my girls know. AS much as I tried to keep it a secret, I broke down and cried to them.
They comforted me and held me....but I am still lost...and hurt.

So..I'll just use photos...Mood of the moment??

I WANT:


I FEEL:





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BUT...BENEATH ALL THAT I AM FEELING...I KNOW I RELY ON THE HOPE THAT LAYS THERE...EITHER IT BE SMALL OR JUST ABOUT TO GROW...WAITING FOR THE DAY IT FINALLY TAKES OVER...