BLAH

so, I'm at work. Tired,so very tired. The system is down, so no computers-hence why I am posting using my phone. I have been I'm such a nasty mood this whole week. Which is NOT like me at all, so this worries me. Should I be worried? ahhhhh, I'm so lost! haha I don't know why I am laughing,but sometimes you just have to. I feel so many things that it is literally taking a toll on me. I keep trying to keep my head up,but I feel everything so.heavy. I 'm not giving in, but it feels like I am ALWAYS fighting. Always picking up the pieces and always reconstructing myself. Why does it feel like I am always working harder than the people that hurt me????

jeez, I know that in a couple hours from now,I am going to be upset for sounding so 'defeated.' BUT,I know this is a safe place. Its just up to me what I will make of this. I know its hard, but I can take the hit. Hard work always pays off. ..